marley & me

it was a usual friday nite, i had to knock off late from work ard 9+, deardear pick me up to his house for my favorite curry then send me back home to change then movie!!

n tat nite.. i cry my heart out. i was literally shaking at the end of the show, cos i can't stop thinking of peachie. tis show makes you laugh, makes u smile from your heart and makes you cry like a sad puppy.. n i still tot i was going to laugh thru out the show.. LOLx! in the end eyes swollen~ haha! but good thing my yewyew was with me.. tat's good rite but.. he make me paiseh la.. cos i was lying down on his shoulder while watching then i think my tears fall on his arms.. n then you noe wat! he say: Dear! you cry? -.- thanx dear.. i love u~ =p guys.. sometimes.. hai~ nvm.

I HATE LIARS!!

you know when you started working in the cooperate world, ppl you meet can be so nasty and irritating you just feel like scolding FUCK YOU!! right in their face n walk off.

i hate it when ppl can just say "no, i didnt see the conversation btw you n the other party" when you just show them.. NNB la. ass! can lie right in my face.. CBCBCB!

everything also black n white, no wonder your world is fucking black n white.. get a life man. if not for the sake of my education i wouldn't be sitting here hearing u crap ass talk shit!!

i apologise for all the 'beautiful' language cos i muz get it out from me. i may look or seem calm right now infront of my lappy.. but inside me just feel like killing someone. DAMN!!

it doesnt matter if you fail.. is how u finish it.

Nick Vujicic is 27yrs old tis year, he has no arms n no legs but he nv give up in life. he travel ard to give inspirational talks and motivate ppl.. to believe in yourself and god. for watever reasons or whoever he believed in, i trust is the strong self of his that brought him to this stage. he is one man i truly respect for his courage to stay alive..

tuning. . .

at times.. u feel like there’s more then one of urself.. u started talking to urself like there’s more than one inside u.. u contradict wat u say n started scolding urself.. u then start to wonder wat the hack happen to u.. u love yet hate the one or two in u.. cos one talks crap and the other makes sense but u jux cant stop the bitch in u and u started bitching abt others.. n u start saying fuck u to urself n u kind of go mad.. well.. the list can goes on n on.. but somehow.. i guess.. i noe the cause.. i’m tuning more then one string in me at a time that i started to create noise instead of music..

n the noise goes.. i wanted to study.. yes i did.. i wanted a job.. yes i found.. i want a better me.. so i started to read more.. i want a bigger bed n so i work harder.. i wanted to revamp my room n there i go continue to work harder.. i wanted to buy stuff for my love ones n ya.. i work till 8pm or 9pm jux to make sure i’m in the lead.. i wish i can concentrate or give my full attention either to my work or studies but i cant cos they work both ways.. its impossible for me to jux study cos i wouldnt have the money to.. n if i work n not study i don feel good cos i'm not upgrading myself.. ya.. they tickle each other which can be irritating at times.. i feel like giving up cos the cost n time for studies is kind of killing.. but then again.. i'm already at term 3 and 3 more to go.. half way there don give up.. well.. i wanted too much of myself till i felt like i was drank even when i drink water.. tuning n tuning jux to create a better music for myself n ppl ard me.. but sometimes i wonder.. how much can i tune? maybe bcos of my age.. i’m not patient.. i want means i want.. i want to be.. i noe i can.. n i am so eager to do whatever i can so i can be who i wanted myself to be.. i get so angry with the impatient self tat i pointed middle finger to myself in the mirror.. i sit down n listen to music n start to tear for no reasons.. i jux wish i have the power to stay awake thru out tis year so i can tune all the strings in me to my desire pitch.. well i noe.. one string at a time.. n be more patient.. tat’s wat i need to do.. i’m suppose to study now.. but if i don get tis out of me.. i will break all the strings in me.. yawns~ i actually have research for my work as well.. but.. like i always say.. no worries.. i have got the time.. i will have to fuck myself if i take all my time for granted..

i notice a lot of self self in tis entry.. but hack.. i have more then one in me.. LOLz!

well.. byebye 15O7.. i’m going to do some research.. then ko..

no time..

sometimes.. human are just human.. ur brain wants to study and do watever but ur body is jux plain lazy.. u rather sit down, watch tv, play games or jux surf the net..

it all comes down to discipline.. n well~ maybe i'm not tat discipline enough.. or i'm not tat robot enough to do watever i want without asking my heart if i wanted to.. LOLx! ok.. sounds like i'm giving myself reasons not to look at my lecture notes rite now..

talking abt tat! tis time no tips at all for exams.. you noe wat my lecturer tell urs for tips.. Section A 4 qns answer 2. n Section B also 4 qns answer 2. -.- Section A covers chapter 1-10 n Section B from Chapter 11 onwards. you can imagine my expression when i hear tis.. like wat a lousy tips!! it shouldnt be called tips.. tis is wat we call exam format. tmd! ang mo is sick in the brain sometimes..

ok. finish whining.. time to get back to studies~ -.-''

lose control for yEw..

i just want u to know..

when u are lost i'm half lost..

when u are down i only want to cheer u up..

when u see nothing.. i hope i could paint some pictures..

maybe u would say its a small matter.. but i cant control myself..

cos i noe when i'm lost.. when i cry.. when there's no light.. u show me the way..

i just want u to know.. u are impt to me..

i just want u to know.. i only want to make u smile..

i just want u to know.. that everything will be fine..

i just want u to know.. that i'll be here no matter wat..

i just want u to know..

u are special.. n u deserve more..



well.. i cant control myself.. to think.. to wonder.. to try.. to do watever i can.. even it is just ur somedays..