let out more?

.. . i'm.. a person who dosent like to share my thoughts n feelings.. unless, i'm very close to that person.. but after i let it out.. i kind of regret telling so much.. i would love to let myself out totally.. but i simply cant..

i like to keep things to myself.. u can call that selfish.. but i jux have got the feeling that if i tell more 1) will the person get wat i mean? 2) will i bother him/her with my problems? maybe tat's why my frds seldom heard much of my 'sad' stories cos i don really like to let it out.. even if i do.. i will kind of tell half..

maybe no one really understand me? bcos i don let out?

as i grow old.. i start to realise myself more.. i know wat are my good and wat are my bad.. it doesnt matter whether anyone think is good or bad.. i judge myself cos it is for myself..

well.. juz randomly think that i'm actually someone that doesnt like ppl to know so much of me.. =\

humans are so contradicting.. when u don let out.. ppl don get u.. n soon.. they don bother.. unless they are ur family members n ur love ones..

but i guess it is fine to selectively tell stories to ppl tat u want.. but tell all? lolx..

i jux cant sleep.. n my mind went wild....